The Wailing

Mournful sounds arise from the
deepest depth of my soul - the
anguished wails of those I cannot
identify  , whose voices I can no
longer hear - under the cover of
darkness the wailing continues
growing louder and stronger with
each and every call causing my
heart to break with such sadness
I can no longer describe the ache
inside that I feel for their suffering .
The despair that they must feel ,
the heartbreaking sadness washes
over me knocking me over with grief
to deep to understand .
How can one person suffer this much
with not a living soul around to see or
understand the pain that I felt .
With deep regret I begin to ignore the
sounds - how I long to join them , but I
know I cannot , my place is here for now ,
until my time passes I will continue on
hoping for just one moment when silence
is all that I hear .

Foresaken

Shrieking in agony my minds eye

seeing beyond all things unseen ,

the world beyond a vast wasteland

of grief and agony ... despair never
ending .
Hopelessness echoes through the

cavernous halls made all the more

hopeless by the surrounding darkness ,

the chill that lingers in the air , unknown

creatures stirring in the dark delighted
by the suffering the poor souls that are

trapped forever in the embrace of eternal

dark , suffering unknown horrors - the

agony - beyond all imagination , beyond

description .
Never the light of day are these poor souls

to see again - the pity that is felt for those

that suffer ...

Oh woe are the forsaken that suffer such
anguish and despair .

My Demons

Twisted and Mangled ,
Tattered and Torn -
Shredded beyond recognition ,
How my flesh burns in misery ,
Oh how it bleeds in agony .
The demons cackle in delight at my distress , at
my misery . How did it come to this ? My life in
ruin , beyond all repair - beyond saving .
The horror of life surrounds me enclosing me in
eternal darkness , I try fighting but the despair
I feel is to great a burden - a burden I can no
longer bare .
Fear has taken over , I can no longer hear
anything for the pounding of my heart racing
in terror it drowns out the sounds of
everything else .
Everything is a mystery to me . How could I
ever have let it gotten this far beyond my
control ? How will I ever survive ?

Trying to be Me

Don't call me an abomination .
Don't tell me I don't belong .
Don't tell me that I'm worthless
or that I live my life all wrong .
Don't judge me for who you
think I am or tell me who I
should be .
I'm just trying to live my life ,
I'm just trying to be me.
 
  I didn't wake up one morning choosing this
path that I'm on now , I wouldn't have chosen
a path with all the ridicule and hate that I
now face .This is the way I was born , I'm happy
with who I am - why can't you love me for who
I am , instead of hating me for who I'll always be .
  The choice was made for me before I was even born ,
but yet you still blame me for nothing I've done
wrong .
  I love who I love why is that so wrong I will not
apologize , for there is nothing to be sorry for  -
despite what you may believe .
  So don't tell me that I'm wrong or that I don't
belong , I'm the same as everyone else , I'm just
trying to be me .